April 15, 2016

TGIF!! Finally Friday! It has been a long week. So far I have kept my diet on track (one day at a time), and either met or almost met my step goal. I am down 3 pounds...not a lot...but a start. Thursday was the exception to the steps…I had the early shift at work…and errands afterwards that precluded making my step goal.

I checked in with my step mother…she is doing well. My half-sister lives in the same town as my step mother, and she has been spending time with her…and her own kids have been very attentive as well.

Walking and being aware of my body, mind, and attitude have all proven helpful this week. I am beginning to feel the anxiety/depression lessen. I am still having some back/neck pain every day…but even that is better. It is amazing how easy it is to lose touch with the person in the mirror.

I found myself singing along with the radio this morning, on the drive in to work. I haven’t done that for quite a while. In fact…most days I didn’t even turn it on. I am an old hippie…straight from the 60’s & 70’s…so music has always been a huge part of my life. But for a long time…it just seemed to add to the noise of my emotions…so it was one more thing that went by the wayside.

Each day…I get a little longer glimpse of “me”. That is very reassuring.

This journey has taught me many things…some good things…and some not so good. One of the hardest lessons has been in realizing just how little control we have over…anything. The only thing that we can control…is how we respond to life…and even controlling that is oftentimes impossible. We cannot always protect or take care of…everyone around us…because sometimes we need protected and taken care of…and that’s okay.

We can only do…what we can do…and that’s okay too…