The past few days have been the worst that we've seen in a while. Shane's house being broken into, my time in the hospital...still no job prospects. But, it's over...for now anyway. I find myself tense wondering what will happen next. Still...there were good things mingled with the bad...Shane wasn't home when they robbed him (I thank God for that over and over), Sugar didn't get run over while she was out romping the neighborhood (and she found her way back), we had insurance to cover the hospital and I didn't require surgery, and we are still able to pay the bills and keep our house (so far).
So...I know how ungrateful it may sound...but this was still a crummy day. I went back to work, before I really felt like going, because I knew there would be no one else there to do the day-to-day grunt work. And of course, it was horribly busy. At least twice during the day, I looked around me at the piles of work and wondered if I could get them all taken care of without mixing things up and sending things to the wrong places...or leaving half the information off of something. I don't have a clue how that turned out...time will tell I suppose.
Tonight, my hand and arm hurt...but they are both lots better than even yesterday. If I can just get some energy back now, I'll be good to go. I didn't walk my usual mile tonight...I just didn't have it in me. Hopefully tomorrow though. Walking is more than just exercise for me...it is a time to let go of the day...to clear away the dark clouds and grab a piece of sunshine, I actually need to walk and be outdoors...just a time to not think about anything except the music on my ipod and good things. No expectations...no rules...no anything...just the sky, and the ducks, and the dogs, and the wind, and the kids laughing and playing, and the walk.
Tomorrow is another day. It's kind of scary.
Be Well!
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